Wednesday, October 19, 2011

loving my body- imperfections and all!


The beautiful and talented Ashley from 2 Eyes in the Mirror is hosting Love Your Body Day- a time for bloggers to reflect on, comment and share what we love about our bodies.  For me, loving my body has been a process so here's my story in a nutshell:

Junior High School was a hard time for me.  I was lanky, had awkward bangs, wore thick glasses and was shy.  I tried to hide behind loose clothing- mostly baggy jeans and itchy sweaters.  Playing competitive soccer was my niche- my escape and my way of fitting in.  I could be myself on the soccer field and loved the feeling of running and being physically active.

Fast foward to High School.  I started wearing contacts, got my hair highlighted and wore braces to fix the gaps in my teeth.  I became interested in heels and clothing and loved dressing up.  I was still playing soccer and exercised several times a week.  I was proud of my body- I loved how I was becoming a woman with curves and a feminine silhouette.

In University I tried to fit in by partying as hard as everyone else was when that's really not me (I'm more of a bookie, art gallery and theatre type of gal).  I thought the only way to feel good about myself was by exposing myself with low cut tops, barely there skirts and wearing lots of makeup.  If a man wasn't giving me attention (even if it was for the wrong reasons), then I didn't feel pretty.  I stopped playing sports, didn't exercise and starting drinking.  I gained a bit of weight and noticed that my metabolism wasn't as good as it used to be.  I became a full-on vegetarian and became anemic because I wasn't eating properly.  I was diagnosed with mild depression and was told by my Dr to exercise as it would release endorphins but I ignored her advice so it became a cycle.  I was depressed so didn't exercise and by not exercising I became more depressed. 

Now, at the age of 23 I've never felt so comfortable (and happy!) in my own skin.  I don't need others to tell me I look good (although I certainly don't discourage it!) because I feel great and that's whats important.  I joined the gym this summer and have been going to the gym at least 4 times a week since, doing step cardio, weight classes, bootcamp and (my personal favourite) Zumba.  My man bought me a bike and we enjoyed many leisurely (and some not so leisurely) bike rides beside the Ottawa river.  I'm hoping to become a Zumba Instructor in the next few months and I've even dabbled with the idea of taking a Fitness Course at the local College.  Let's just say that I'm loving my body these days, sure there are still many things I would love to change but I feel strong, healthy and beautiful and that's what truly matters! 

{Since I work for a lingerie company, part of my job is helping with photoshoots, surrounded by beautiful lingerie models.  It's hard not to be self-conscious around these girls but hey it's the true test!}
Yeehaw! So that's how I'm loving my body today- now it's your turn!

33 comments:

  1. You are too cute! Love your story and the process of how you got to where you are today :)

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  2. Glad to hear of the progress you've made with loving your body :)

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  3. Yay girl! You are beautiful. Thank you so much for posting this. It's amazing the stories behind all the gorgeous women we see today. Glad you shared yours! I'm excited to hear about your future dabbles in exercise. I still have yet to even TRY Zumba!

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  4. I think you look fantastic! It's funny - I was a vegetarian and even a vegan for a while but I had to stop because of anemia too. Do you skate on the Ottawa river in the winter? I've always wanted to do that. :-)

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  5. Ha, you are so cute! I loved hearing about how you got to where you are! You're beautiful!!

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  6. Lovely post. You look great, my father used to tell me the same thing about exercising every time I was feeling kinda depressed (he was a psychotherapist) and he was totally right. I think every woman has had her ups & downs about her body I'm glad it's something you feel comfortable writing about.

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  7. I wish I weren't such a scaredy-cat about getting run over on a bicycle. Although I guess it doesn't much matter anymore, my last bike was stolen while I lived in Vanier.

    I wish I were a person who liked the gym. I gave it a try a few years ago and all I got out of the experience was a hatred for the personal trainer who called me "Vitamin C" and a permanent back injury I didn't report but should have *sigh* I do "home zumba" as I like to call it. Blast my tunes and bounced around and flail all my limbs to the beat until I'm sweaty and out of breath and all my muscles are screaming. It does the trick hah.

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  8. I know what you mean, when I was younger I used to hide behind my skin too, and then I started to dress differently in college (more revealing like you...but still not too revealing...and now I am finally comfortable in my skin and wear whatever I want :D
    http://www.closet-fashionista.com

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  9. Whoops...I meant hide behind my clothes....ahahaha XD I wonder what made me type skin..

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  10. great post

    http://amyfashionblog52.blogspot.com/

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  11. I'm happy you're finally comfortable in your own skin! Now time to motivate me to go to your class! ;)

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  12. I was reading all of this and I know how young you are, but when you got to the part where you said, "Now I'm 23........" It was just weird because of all your experience and wisdom, I was expecting a bigger number. Not that you look older. You know what I'm saying, right? ha. Oy.

    I love your body! It's perfection.

    xo,
    Tracy

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  13. Yeeha! You look like you're having a great time, and you seem so confident with yourself. It's nice to hear that you're so fit and active--that is so important for feeling good about your body. When you become a Zumba instructor, you must post a video of your best dance moves!

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  14. My evolution is pretty similar to yours. I finally hit a point where I eat and exercise for health rather than thinking about how fat/thin/muscular I'll look. It's a nice place to be.

    Jenn

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  15. Great post! I am so glad to hear you are feeling better than ever :) Working out definitely helps me feel happier and healthier. x

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  16. Great read. really enjoyed this and great photo...get em cowgirl. Dawn xo p.s. I love how you refer to your man as "your man" cute.

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  17. Great post.. I struggled with my body in university as well, gained weight and was diagnosed with depression. Recently I've gotten back on track with fitness in a similar manner to you, and I'm starting to love my body again too!

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  18. Thank you so much for your kind comment on my tattoo post :)
    I say go for your pin up girl. The pain is temporary but the beautiful artwork is forever!

    This is a great post. I don't know that I'd do so well dealing with lingerie models daily! Good for you! I think i'm going to try your exercise suggestion for releasing some endorphins. I could use the boost :)

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  19. You look great, as always. And your personal history is something we can learn from.

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  20. Congratualtions Emily, it's great to feel good in your own skin. I'm 33 years old and a mother of 3 girls and my body has definately changed after each pregnancy. But now in my 30's I feel more at peace with my body than ever before maybe is because my life is settled and my husband makes me feel pretty and sexy from time to time...lol
    One thing I would advise to anyone is to wear clothes that flatter your body and be confident in yourself :-)

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  21. Loved this post!
    andd it's so awesome that you're thinking about becoming a zumba instructor. I love taking zumba classes, I end up having so much fun I forget that I'm "working out"

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  22. you're beautiful, you;'re 23, young and full of vitality! And that outfit totally reflects who you are as a young girl. I love your story, your journey is inspiring especially for other young girls.

    love,mongs
    mythriftycloset.blogspot.com

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  23. that was a really interesting story about you and how you have developed in time. and I'm very glad you have achieved that so called happy feeling :)

    I'm also satisfied with my body but I know many people who are not.. and probably it stays that way since they get depressed and this makes everything worse.. everyone should love themselves in my opinion because that's where everything positive starts from :)

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  24. I good self body image is important. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, what ever shape or size they may be. Thanks for the post. It has a good message

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  25. This is a great post. Thank you for sharing all these details about your life.

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  26. Awesome post! So meaningful - thanks for sharing. I love your outfit in this post - so casual and chic. Love the cowboy hot and rocker studded belt ;)

    http://justtututiny.blogspot.com/
    Thu

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  27. You look fabulous girl! Kudos to you for keeping it together around those "perfect" lingerie models. I don't think I could do that! Loved this post :)

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  28. Thank you for the comment! :)
    This is beautiful as well! I remember going through some of those same phases. I'm so happy we are on the other side of it!

    Exercise is also one of the best things that has ever happened to me! It makes me feel amazing. I'm so glad you have re-ignited your passion for it!

    Meagan

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  29. Great post Emily...what a wonderful place to be in with your body-you appreciate it and it shows:-)
    Looking super hot in that cowboy hat girl!

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  30. you look great! I agree, It takes time to be comfortable in your skin. Once you are your limitless!

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  31. You are too funny! That last picture nearly killed me. As for body issues, I only go by how my clothes fit and how much energy I have. When I was in middle school, my dad said something along these lines: "It doesn't matter that you're not the prettiest. Always strive to be the cleverest." I think it's the best advice, though I do admit to being freakishly competitive even when it comes to playing Trivial Pursuit, Jeopardy, etc. with my friends. Gotta be the cleverest!

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  32. You look fantastic deary! so excited to see you'll be taking part in B4H! callie and I are thrilled!

    much love,
    Lauren xoxo

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One of my daily joys is reading the lovely comments you leave. It may take a day or two (or three, depending on how hectic life gets!) but I will stop by your slice of the blogosphere soon! xo Emily